Trying to find new words to speak...trying to find a new upgraded version of that girl i see vaguely through the mirror..she seems almost tangible yet unreachable i know this from experience. why do i always feel persecuted by the ones that mean the most to me?...is it lasting effects from my childhood..I have seemed to ignore?..
I want to love easily...how you love. if only. you could show me... your word speaks it..but still i am hungry for more...i love but it almost seems melted...unstable.. I need you to be my backbone when i seem to lack one..at times it seems almost often...than rare.
The only way i find you is through music..i know there are more ways..but when i find you...when i finally listen..I am weak i have to admit..i am vulgar at times.. stubborn dare i say ignorant ...all these flaws i possess. i come to you in my most intimate times..pleading for forgiveness you have already given me..
can i ask for help?..i know i have but again..i ask for help. i want to view this world with unprocessed eyes.. and now i am back to step one reversing things I've said i find myself filled with anger...my voice is never good enough. my words seem redundant and selfish.. where will i find this strength you say we gain through you? anytime now would be great!....
can i ask for help? I know I have but again.. I ask for help. to view my life with a noble heart. to let love in...to trust myself...to trust you. my words seem never good enough.. where can i find this strength you say we gain?
..soon i hope..soon i pray
I want to love easily...how you love. if only. you could show me... your word speaks it..but still i am hungry for more...i love but it almost seems melted...unstable.. I need you to be my backbone when i seem to lack one..at times it seems almost often...than rare.
The only way i find you is through music..i know there are more ways..but when i find you...when i finally listen..I am weak i have to admit..i am vulgar at times.. stubborn dare i say ignorant ...all these flaws i possess. i come to you in my most intimate times..pleading for forgiveness you have already given me..
can i ask for help?..i know i have but again..i ask for help. i want to view this world with unprocessed eyes.. and now i am back to step one reversing things I've said i find myself filled with anger...my voice is never good enough. my words seem redundant and selfish.. where will i find this strength you say we gain through you? anytime now would be great!....
can i ask for help? I know I have but again.. I ask for help. to view my life with a noble heart. to let love in...to trust myself...to trust you. my words seem never good enough.. where can i find this strength you say we gain?
..soon i hope..soon i pray
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